Kristi's

back to school sooooon

2005-01-13T07:21:47Z

this week has been so crazy.

i love hanging out with everyone from home, i really really do. you guys are the best and make me laugh soooo hard and i would be in a mental institution right now if i didnt hang out with you guys like every night.

besides that, however, i hate being home more than anything in the world. being in my house is the most depressing thing that you could ever imagine and i cannot wait to go back to school just so i dont have to be in my house anymore.

how horrible of me to say that, but oh well...its been said and its how i feel.

everything thats been thrown at me lately has been bullshit and im done.

p.s.-im really not a bitter person. cause im damn optimistic through it all.

sadonky antson and dinty dina

2005-01-03T08:13:11Z

so being home is...good?

i really just love being at home with the girls. every single one of you girls that were there on new years (d,bata,lisa,lauren,meg,emily,mary)i love sooo much. and no, i do not love stacey. other than that home is ooook. its actually really stressful with my dad. im paranoid all the time about him falling or something bad happening and i would actually rather be out of my home most of the time so i dont have to deal with it. which is sad if you ask me. i should not feel stressed in my own home. but im telling you, having a very sick parent who you have to take care of and worry about all the time is more stressful than finals. my poor mom though, seriously. i feel so bad for her.

anyways christmas was good even though it kinda just felt like a normal day. but i guess it felt like that for a lot of people? i got a cool mp3 player which will be nice for the gym, but im still waiting on my digital camera PARENTAL UNITS

i went down to geneseo for a party with the webster gang tuesday and it was really fun. basically cause i love drunk emily, and i love hats and apparently i love miller high life lite? no but it was really just fun because the party only consisted of close friends. and it was awesome. then i puked, a lot.

the rest of the week is kinda a blur now. scene it is the best game ever.

new years eve was crazy cause i didnt know if i wanted to go to geneseo with everyone or not alllll day. after choosing paper out of a hat to decide whether i wanted to go or not, i ended up deciding to go. but then my dad had a seziure and we had to call the ambulances and all that jazz and i flipped because ive never been home when hes had one. my little brother was way cooler about it than me. probably because hes had to call 911 twice when hes had seziures because he was the only one home. anyways the ambulances came and i called d and told her i was gonna stay home with my brother cause i didnt want him to be home alone on new years. but, my mom and ryan told me that i should go and for some idiotic reason i believed them.

i ended up going and hating myself for going the whole night. who leaves their family during a time like that, honestly? i called my mom a bunch of times crying. guhh that was such a dumb decision.

buuuuut i will say that the new years party couldnt have been more fun. there were webster and geneseo people there and i wasnt drunk and there was a lot of drama for me to observe with bata. so fun. and the best part of the night was laying in marks weight room with d, bata, and deuelie and sometimes emily (cause she talked to us through the floor). damn that was so fun.

and yesterday adam came home and we hung out and it was fun. hes really a strange kid though, but its ok, cause im really crazy too. and sometimes i cry for no reason.

its 3 am. i am an insomniac

p.s. i really dont want to go back to school. im done. i hate school. boooooo

longest entry ever

cookieevd @ 2004-12-12T13:48:00

2004-12-12T18:49:27Z

i hate people who looove hypocrisy

cookieevd @ 2004-11-30T23:49:00

2004-12-01T05:29:59Z

oh man guys i want to go home again so badly because this time of year geneseo=suck. i'm in such a bad mood most of the day. it really is not that i have too much work. sure, i have a couple projects and reading and stuff but its all do-able. i think that just after being off for 5 days and seeing how wonderful it is, i dont want to do work at all. AT ALL. plus having finals looming...this place just kinda blows. and everyones in the same boat, so as emily was saying in her entry, everyones kinda on edge.

thanksgiving break was very nice. i cant sleep here, and at home i fall asleep within 2 minutes of laying down, i swear. it was great to see everyone again and to hang out and play cranium, even though i pretty much suck. its comforting to know that most of your friends from highschool are still as cool as they were then and of course coffee with bata was great...cause she is the best ever.

and that is it. i cant wait for christmas.

thanksgiving

2004-11-26T22:03:46Z

So thanksgiving this year was....well...

It was really really good up until my mom started puking in the sink in my grandma's kitchen because my stupid brother was in the bathroom. I then felt so sick to my stomach because i cant handle puke. my family was then forced to rush out of grandmas house way early, and I proceeded to speed home so that my mom wouldnt puke in the car. It was great....no really it sucked hardcore. and then we were locked out of our house in the freezing cold. awesome.

i spent the next 6 hours up in my bed watching seinfeld cause i was in a horrible mood.

and...yea. marius/glow show tonight. should be fun.

cant wait to see you geneseo babies.

oh president bush...

2004-11-04T04:55:38Z

ok, so i haven't updated in some time...but this is MY journal, and i can write what i feel.

i guess i'm just glad this whole election thing is behind us so that the country can move ahead and try to unite again, even though it would be hard. i'm not gonna talk about how angry i am, i guess i'm just disappointed in the lack of knowledge. people out there don't seem to know anything about politics or the facts or the truth. ANYTHING! now, first of all before everyone gets all in my face, i'm not just just talking about republicans..i'm talking about democrats too. everyone! from what if listened too and witnessed in these past few weeks, people are so uneducated it disgusts me. i've heard things like "i'm voting for bush because he was already elected once" or "i'm voting for kerry because bush is stupid" and other bullshit like that. they feel certain ways about canidates because other people do and they don't even take the time to reasearch the canidates and learn the facts. They don't even know who stands for what, and make irrational decisions.

guys, the country is in our hands. i'm not saying that "this election turned out bad because we didn't know about the bad stuff bush has done and blah blah blah." while i agree with that statement, it's not just that.

i took the time a couple of months ago to research both canidates and decide from there who to vote for. even though i was quite biased to begin with, i did take the time to do this. so this is what i'm asking of all of you for the election of 2008. don't be afraid to go against your parents beliefs. we live in a different world than they did when they chose political parties and canidates, and they have pasts that you will never know or understand that may influence the decisions they make. don't be afraid to go against your friend's beliefs because guess what...they arent you. support the canidate who best fits your beliefs and how you feel.PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE in the future reasearch the canidates and make an INFORMED decision. and please VOTE!!!!

ok..in other news...
i was one of the approx. 400 students at geneseo who got busted for using DC++ (an illegal file sharing network), which COMPLETELY BLOWS because i've used it approx. 4 times this whole semester. so now i have to attend some class that will tell me what i did was illegal. bullshit.

cookieevd @ 2004-08-24T14:25:00

2004-08-24T18:27:10Z

i would just like everyone to know that d gave me the best birthday present EVER.

it was so thoughtful and cute.

i keep looking at it over and over.

so THANK YOU D!!!!!!!

attention all erie A3A residents...

2004-08-23T01:05:15Z

i have purchased the carpet for our common room. it is light brown.

i was explaining to tina...it is not the greatest carpet. dont get me wrong, it is nice, but it isnt anything spectacular. i was told that i should not worry about getting an awesome carpet for our common room seeing as that its gonna get the shit kicked out of it. so, it is a little on the thin side.

it is also 6' by 9', because that is the largest i could find without paying 200 bucks for it. but, i think this is a good size seeing as that furniture will cover most of the room

it will look wonderful in our common room.

if anyone has any concerns about our carpet, please contact me.

yours truly,
kristi lynn smith

wow...

2004-08-12T05:42:38Z

Today was really weird
I got out of bed really late because my alarm clock has broken and I cannot afford a new one at the moment.

I feel unusual because my antidepressants are making me hairy.

I'm so sad. My kitten got run over this afternoon. I found him when I was coming home. His head was all squished. I took some photos. I'll miss him. Poor kitty.

Last night I had to shave my entire body. Apparently, the lice that I caught from Amanda's friend are really hard to get rid of. I look quite strange with no hair and eyebrows. I'd post pictures, but my webcam is broken.

I want to tell the world to get fucked.

I am really annoyed with those assholes at _are_you_hotter_than_us_?, because I am so much cuter than them, and those photos don't do me justice. They can't reject me, so I'm starting my own rating community. Click here to join (the first five applicants are automatically accepted).

Today, I got a digital camera! Yes! I'm so ugly. Don't look at my photos pleeeeeze.

I want to say thanks to the world for absolutely fucking nothing! You all suck. I feel so alone, no one ever reads this journal, or even comments to let me know that I'm not suffering alone. It's cold here, and I want to die, but I cannot figure out how many of you to take with me when I go.

I went to the doctor yesterday, and he said I have a terrible skin disease which prevents me from coming into contact with other human beings. And bipolar disorder.

i wish i was real

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why hello

2004-08-10T05:22:57Z

yesterday was an angry entry.

this is a happy one.

today we played softball and i was crazy and wore a helmet. and andrew says that im the MVP for our team.

then adam and i talked for a very long time and every time one of us would say "ok im gonna go" we ended up talking for another 10 minutes. this went on for over an hour. it reminded me of when we were first dating and we just could not get enough of eachother. it was so nice. :-)

and nanfog is here. and smash is coming tomorrow.

i'm so excited to go back to school. i cant even tell you guys. our suite is gonna be so awesome. suites are just cool. its like having your own apartment with 6 of your best friends. i cant wait.

but im gonna miss home like crazy. i love not having work to do, and im gonna miss my friends here like crazy. its like we never even went to college, because we are all still such good friends. my friends from home are the most random and creative bunch ive ever met, and i love them dearly. im also gonna miss the fam more than ever. its weird when you go from seeing people everyday to seeing them next to never.

my birthday is in 2 weeks-buy me presents

cookieevd @ 2004-08-08T21:58:00

2004-08-09T02:05:15Z

i have never thought that life was unfair untill recently.

i hate being so angry about everything.

i hate feeling so stressed.

i hate having to hold back tears of anger all the time.

i hate hating my life.

i hate how ironic life is. how i can be so poor, and still have my car breakdown and have problems with it. like i have money to fix anymore problems with it.

i hate how my parents can work so hard, and still have to live paycheck to paycheck to make ends meet.

i hate how some families can do whatever they want with money, and we just make it by.

and on top of that, we pay 40 bucks a day for just one of my dads pills. mind you hes on about 10 different pills a day.

i hate money. it makes me sick.

i hate being jealous of people with a lot of money or of families who have a lot of money.

i hate that i even feel this way because i know that that we are a lot better off than other families.

i hate republicans.

i hate life.

so porkstock 2k4...

2004-08-01T05:12:17Z

GETS 2 BIG THUMBS DOWN. no not really, only sarcastically.

but i did have the worst headache of my life, got attacked by a scary 40 year old man with a long ponytail, breathed in tent (yes like the tent actually went in my mouth), was rained on while sleeping, listened/watched pete/dave puke all night and all morning and all afternoon, spent 5 hours sleeping in the back of lisa deuels car, peed numerous times in the woods, ate only 3 donut holes, a bag of cheetos, and a mini bagel in the time we were there ( i missed all the feeding times because i was sleeping :-( ), got yelled at by the crazy mother chicken, and was dressed like i was from the 80's.

oh well, there were many many good laughs.

i think i got a total of 2 hours of sleep last night...yea it's bedtime!

D!!!!!! i don't have gas problems :-(

2004-07-26T03:38:52Z

alls i got to say is...

2004-07-18T23:56:41Z

shits crazy right now

and i think im ready to go back to geneseooooooooooo woop woop

cookieevd @ 2004-07-17T01:24:00

2004-07-17T05:30:29Z

sex and the city made me feel better

and that is all that matters

...

2004-07-11T07:10:13Z

so tonight was very verrrrry fun.

...and it is because it included the highlight OF MY LIFE.

so me and d and meg are in the car on a busy street in niagra falls. there are people all over. all of a sudden, i spot 3 extremely cute boys walking up the street. i then say, "wow, there are so many good looking guys here." RIGHT as i finish that sentence the hottest boy i've ever seen in my life is looking at me in the car. all of a sudden he gets this huge smile on his face, waves and says hi to me.

i could have died because he was so beautiful.

for a second i just stared, but then i waved back and said hi.

it put me in the best mood for the rest of the night.

even when tight white pants boy was hitting on me and i wasnt having any of it. :(

i know the moment was trivial and stupid, but guys....you shouldve seen him. seriously. so gorgeous.

the rest of the night was really fun. akward, but fun. we went in a haunted house and d and i held hands becasue we were soooo scared. d fell on the stairs and she kicked one of the guys who jumped out at us. the boys pretended they werent scared but they were screaming too. like when we entered a part of the house where there were just tons of mirrors and the one boy named justin got scared that there were people all around and the other boy said "dude, its you!"

scotty and his friends are freakin funny and extremely nice.

like this boy named worm who wears really tight white pants that cost 200 dollars or some crap. and shoes that cost $225. i told him that my shoes cost $2.50. i was also rather mean to him. he would try to talk to me but i wouldnt answer. hahahahah so d had to talk for me.

and this boy named...well i forget his name...kept telling d the crappiest stories and so i started laughing and he got pissed at me.

oh man it was such a fun night.

cookieevd @ 2004-06-20T02:29:00

2004-06-20T06:34:21Z

some of my friends should not be allowed to drink excessive amounts of alcohol.

ever.

moderation is the key.

amen.

but i still love them all, they make my life entertaining.

i heart lindsay abbata...still

and i heart journey...still

TIME TO GO SLEEP WITH THE SWEATSHIRT <3

weird...but cool?

2004-06-18T15:32:37Z

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ah yes

2004-06-18T05:51:39Z

so summer has been going very well. besides the whole not having a job thing...but i start working soon, and i will be much happier.

my parents fixed my saturn without me knowing. they are the best. so i have my own car now! woop woop.

hmmm not much else going on. i love summer. so much. i sleep in late, and hang out with my best friends every night. cant get much better than that.

geoff told me that i was a hunter tonight.

meg is the dr. phill of marks parties.

adam bought me flowers for no reason.

smash came to visit and i love her and i cant wait to go back to geneseo and sleep RIGHT NEXT DOOR TO HER. so i can stare at her while she sleeps. <3

laura loves drag queens.

i love breakfasts from sunrise diner.

and i love lindsay abbata. seriously. we need to hang out more. you make me laugh.

and im spent.

oh one more thing. i love journey.

cookieevd @ 2004-06-03T01:48:00

2004-06-03T05:58:10Z

i have never felt so completely and utterly alone in my ENTIRE life, including my ever so dark period in 11th grade, and there is not a damn thing i can do to fix it. not a damn thing.

it is times like these that i wish i was a more open person--i cannot force myself to talk to anyone about the crap running through my head. at all. wayyy too uncomfortable.

i have nightmares about people cornering me and forcing me to talk to them about deep stuff and it is freakin scary. it makes me feel all panicy(is this a word?)

instead i sit in my bed with my blankets for hours and stare at my ceiling, falling in and out of sleep, thinking about everything there is to think about. my mom tells me it is not healthy.

summer is...fun? yes, fun

in other news-i think i'm going crazy. i'm gonna be the once "normal" girl who ends up in the institution, i know it.

HELLLLOOOOOO

2004-05-14T05:10:23Z

people don't understand what i'm going through, but i don't expect them to by any means.

it's just a weird, tough, painful situation that my family is in.

so if i don't see everyone for a couple of days every now and then this summer, it's because i feel the most comfortable in my home. i don't have to explain how i'm feeling or what's going on...because everyone in my home just knows.

i also am an extremely private person...i'm not gonna grieve and talk about everything i'm going through with anyone. i save that for myself and only for myself...when i'm by myself. every once in a while i confide in someone,but it's exteremly rare. you basically have to beat it out of me with a stick

i'm just an alone type of person..i love my alone time. i always have.

i looooove all you guys though. i really do.

these past couple of days have been weird and hard for me though...for no particular reason. everything sunk in more when i came home.

my days are also crazy. lots of errand running and chores to do for the family. my nights are full of just a lot of thinking on my behalf. and my beloved alone time

but i think it's time i make contact with the outside world again tomorrow, hahaha.

LET'S HANG OUT!!!!!

w33333rd

2004-05-06T03:19:40Z

so my freshman year of college is done. soooo weird

honestly, this was the most insane year of my life. but, as corny as it sounds, i have learned so much this year and i have grown up so much. i'm an *gasps* adult now...fo real. if you are close to me, you've probably seen the changes. this past year has forced me to grow up. it's been a really hard year, but so rewarding at the same time. i've never felt more in control of my life or more happy with who i am. it feels awesome.

i'm gonna miss all my loves in geneseo. soooo badly. i'll even miss the boys...maybe...

i'm looking forward to this summer though. i love hanging out with my family and of course all the crazies in webster.

dad started chemo today-it's scary. but he's strong. the whole thing is still kinda surreal, but we're all positive. WOO POSITIVITY :-)

I MISSSSS YOU GENESEO LOVESSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!

it is sad when your boyfriends name is one of the most frequently used words :-(

2004-03-31T05:40:23Z

FOOTLOOSE

2004-03-27T05:22:39Z

ok, i just had to post because footloose was amazing. i went into the show not expecting anything and come out in awe. i thought the highschool plays would suck because they lost so many people last year, but the singing was incredible. i didn't even know some of those people could sing. like holly lowden? holy crap she was amazing. and lilly was outstanding of course. wow. AND MATT AND LILLY SINGING ALMOST PARADISE. i was in heaven, i really was. it was such a beautiful duet...and lilly sung so beautifully...and i was sooo jealous....

and there was a crazy little girl who could dance like whoa. and parts of it were so comical. and THE BOY WITH GLASSES WHO I AM IN LOVE WITH

i just want to be in footloose...

be jealous if you have not seen it...be very very jealous

wooo best survey ever!!!

2004-03-19T21:22:10Z

A is for - Age: 18
B is for - Boyfriend/Girlfriend:that strong kid
C is for - Career in Future: mmmhmmm speech pathologist
D is for - Dad's name: Robert James Smith
E is for - Essential item to bring to a party: BEER...no
F is for - Favorite song at the moment: that would be "hand me down"-matchbox twenty
G is for - Guy/Girls you've kissed: exactly 1 boy and D-HOFF..but not that kind of kiss...wow my kissing resume is sad:-(
H is for - Hometown: where life is worth living! (webster,ny)
I is for - Instruments you play:i played the flute...but my heart is with the baritone.
J is for - Job title: COLLEGE STUDENT/ADMISSIONS OFFICE BIOTCH
K is for - Kids: mmmmm babies...:makes face when she sees a cute baby and puts hand on chest:
L is for - Living arrangement: 235 onondaga south, Geneseo, NY
M is for - Mom's name: Deborah Anne Smith
N is for - Number of people you've slept with: hey now..hey noooow...
O is for - Overnight hospital stays: zero!
P is for - Phobia[s]: PLANES, heights, dying
Q is for - Quote you like: i dont know
R is for - Relationship that lasted the longest: 1 year and 8 months...adam :-)
S is for - Sexual position: holla at me
T is for - time you wake up everyday: MWF-7:45 TR-9:00 SatSun-?
U is for - Unique trait(s): my knees crack everytime i bend them
V is for - Vegetable you love: celeryyy--LETTUCE!!!!!!!
W is for - Worst habit: nail biting :-(
X is for - X-rays you've had: back, finger
Y is for - Yummy food you make: chewy cookies!!!
Z is for - Zodiac sign: its funny-either virgo or leo depending on the magazine/newspaper

holla holla

dolla dolla